so save yourself
I repeated that
everyday with every breath
my new mantra
i had it as my wallpaper
on every one of my screens
i wrote it in all my books
i surrounded myself with it
no one is coming to save you
blunt and harsh
not a kind statement
a hard pill to swallow
it was a necessary process
to unlearn the years of fantasy
of disney dreams and fairytales
of magic happy endings
wishing upon a star
waiting for a fairy godmother
and a prince
or even a kind stranger
all i had to do was be good
and helpless
and wait for them to appear
my whole life. a damsel in distress
but the reality
was i was slowly sinking
in my naivety
a quicksand of ignorance
a time waste of longing
sitting by the window
looking out for a far off figure
to take me somewhere better
i packed my bags and hid them
and waited and waited and waited
until finally i realized
i can just pick them up myself and go
and so i did
i carried them out
and left
and it was glorious
it’s a wonderful thing to save yourself
its a wonderful thing to go